I am now officially a scrounger…

So not only does my husband no longer want me, I also lost my job at the end of May.

To be fair, I was very happy to be getting away from it but everything kinda happened at once, and going through a separation is hard enough on its own, without no job on top!

I was a teaching assistant in a primary school. I found it really enjoyable in the beginning, loved it, thought I had finally found my path in life….then a ten year old decided to shout and swear in my face and hit me…my working life desintergrated before my eyes.

I lost my confidence in my ability to do my job, I felt nervous around the children…and eventually I started to experience anxiety which led to depression. I was signed off work and I never went back. Through mutual agreement my contract was terminated and I was unemployed.

So now I am a number in the welfare system….claiming Job Seekers allowance, tax credit etc etc. I have worked, albeit a couple of years through having my children, since I was 14 years old, so I don’t feel guilty about getting this help now, as I need it.

It can be soul destroying, applying for jobs you know you could do standing on your head, but constantly getting either the cold shoulder from employers, or knock backs.

I didn’t ask to be in this position, but find myself in it….it is very depressing.

Thank god for Twitter is all I can say! I can pop on there and within minutes I am either laughing out loud, or having a hot debate… Even a cheeky flirt now and again. It always seems to put a smile on my face.


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