I have been offered some no strings sex.
Now, some of you may not think this is a big deal, people go out and shack up with folk on a regular basis. Some people have ‘fuck buddies’; ring them up, ask if they’re up for it, and away they go.
For others, a one night stand is a way of life, don’t form attachments; easier that way.
This has never been the case for me. Having only slept with one man my entire life, I associate sex with feelings; love.
The thought of sharing myself intimately with someone I barley know, brings out all kinds of anxiety and issues with me, let alone the whole ‘feelings’ thing.
So, after talking to a male friend, he offered me some; no strings sex, a one off, no attachment formed union.
He knows how I feel about sex, he also knows I have major hang ups about my body, that I have no confidence and am literally petrified about having sex with anyone, let alone him. But, he understands, he is my friend first and foremost and I trust him. Yet, I’m still scared. The offer is on the table, no strings, no pressure, I just need to think hard and decide whether this is the best way to get over these hang ups I have.
I feel, if I don’t do anything, just sit back and wait, then I’ll be waiting a long time, and life will be continually passing me by.
So, maybe this is the answer?